..LiFe’s a JouRNeY..

though i’ve already put up a forewarning about the temporary closure but i think i have the obligation to add in one last entry as i’ve been tagged by a friend of mine.

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I dont actually know what this “tag” game all about or when it started… all that i know is that if u’ve been tagged, then u have to reveal or expose the weirdest stuff about urself… why stop at 6 i wonder… ehehehehe… i am weird all around so the catalog of my weirdness could go on and on and on… but then again do not offer infos that other ppl do not need to know.. rite?

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if u guys read thoroughly, i’ve already listed some of ‘em on the profile page or on other posts in the blog… so the list here might be a repetitive entries. here goes…

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1. About Food

i can never ever eat mushy squishy fruits or kueh (local desert).

Fruits like Banana, Papaya, Mango, Durian etc etc etc… Kueh mueh like kuih lapis, kuih bingka (Whatever kinda bingka), kuih lepat, kuih talam, kasui, kole kacang, kuih bakar etc etc etc. i dunno why i’m a bit picky about this kinda fruits and kueh tho. and i can’t never explain it whenever ppl start to ask out (which of course happens all the time.. hehe).

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i still remember back then whenever my mom made pisang goreng (banana fritters) for tea she would always make one big crunchy flour batter (in laymen word - kerak) just for myself so that i wont pout and complain on and on for the whole day as to “why does she always making stuff that i dont eat…”  and whenever she forgot to make me one… i’ll tear off all the kerak from the pisang goreng and left the pisang togel for others… hehehe.. guess i wasn’t really a sweet angel those days eh?

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2. About Fishes (still abt food)

here’s another weird part of my taste bud and i would really love to curb it away. i could only eat fishes which are overly cooked (i.e: really fried up fishes or dried grilled fishes). those which are semi raw or lightly cooked or outrite basically raw (in other words.. if it still have the taste and smell of fish..) i definitely wont touch it…  [psst.. i'm not that fussy actually, other than raw fish and mushy fruits and kueh, i could almost eat anything...]

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3. About Entertainment Preferences

i love songs which are usually enjoyed by those people triple my age… the oldies. why? coz i love the lyrics, love the melodies, love the feeling associates with listening to those kinda songs…

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as for visual inputs…i always opt for anime (of which usually being enjoyed by those ppl halves my age). why? maybe the cool art, the storyline, the language, the custom & cultures, the growth in characters, the depiction of art imitating life or vice versa and etc etc etc… as for movies, i enjoy other regular stuff like others do but classic musical like sound of music, king n i, my fair lady, mary poppins, wizard of oz, gone with the wind… would always be the fav.

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and yes, watching rain downpour is also my kind of entertainment. (^o^)v ehehe why? coz in my humble opinion, the said phenomenon offers tranquility and peace… (i.e : watching the beauty splendor of each drops… inhaling the fresh unsullied scent… enjoying the feel of the airy breeze… listening to the pitter patter of the rain…etc etc etc)

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4. About Me Generally

i hate eating alone. would feel kinda sad and miserable if i have to eat alone. and it’s kinda heartbreaking to see other ppl eating by themselves.. hehehehe… another unexplainly weird thing about me. but i would feel less miserable (or forgot to be) if i have reading materials with me… no matter what those things are.. either it’s the label on the soy sauce’s bottle or the news printed on the newspaper used to wrapped the nasi lemak or posters or ad. hanged @ the eating place, or the composition of the ingredient on the ketchup sachets… whatever.. as long as it’s something to read.  and if i was home alone i would always opt to eat in front of the tv… coz i can’t stand eating at the dining table with just empty chairs staring emptily at me..

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5. Another General Fact bout Me

to some i’m a chatterbox and always cracking up jokes (lame and all).. always have stories to tell, eager to listen to others, laugh hysterically with and without reasons.. hehehe…

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but to some, i’m a seriously cold, unfriendly, aloof, unapproachable, all business before pleasure kinda person which hardly talk unless in the dire circumstances where talking is needed.

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these 2 absolute opposite persona are both myself and not to worry, it’s weirdly NORMAL… it’s not  like i’m a psycho having 2 or more split personalities or anything of the sort.  LoL

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6. Junks? That’s not junk..

i always… always… find it very difficult to part with my stuff. junks to others are treasures to me. from small stuff (i.e: greeting cards, b’day cards, small2 notes passed in classes, letters, present and gift’s boxes) to obsolete gadgety stuff (calculator, mobile phone, printers, computers) to damaged stuff and etc etc etc…

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i just dont have the heart to throw them away… either good memories or not so good memories… i embraced it all. that’s why the longer i have it with me the more attached i am to it… and it broke my heart so to part with any one of it… but then again, spaces are limited… *sigh* …………. gee, get a grip and discard them already.. lol

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there, u have it, 6 weird things about me. who should i tag now? dont wanna name names.. so i guess i just tag those who read this post then… whoever you are (but i seriously doubt anybody would bother to write about it tho) hehe

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Please be informed that there wont be any updates in this blog for the time being as we’re in the process of re-vamping and sprucing-up the brain. Any inconvenience arises is highly regretted.

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ehehehe.. it simply means that i’m bored listening to my own self talking… so, am taking a short break and hopefully would be back soon for more updates… "with any luck" it might be something more significant than just a random rant of everyday’s life.. but then again, it might be NOT (haha..talking as if this blog has avid readers..lol)

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P/S: Anime collection list has been updated. Details as per February ‘06 archives.

should i say hi? but if i did… who am saying hi to? lol

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apparently my blog kinda lack of posts these days… no, it’s not because i haven’t got the time to write or too busy with stuff and what not… just that i’m a bit lost at words… kinda lost all those thoughts and all those big big questions that always used to linger and haunt my head.

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hmmm, i suppose that should be a good sign isn’t it?  but bizzarely i kinda miss all those… lol… coz now i dont have anything to complain about and whine about on my blog and hence now i understand that those are the driving forces of my writing….. ehehehehe… and now it’s affirmative that i was and still am an old grouch who is such a whiner. OUCH!! come on… there must be at least, at least 1 good thing/trait about me.. hehe.. no?? none?? nada? nil?? *tsk tsk tsk*

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anyway, i was in Malacca last week.. just lazying around.. having coconut sherbet in a hot sunny days under the trees with my mum and dad… or just having fun watching the rain downpouring on the yard and basking in the cold breeze… hehehe.. and hey i also took a stroll in my dad’s fruits orchad and i’d managed to shot some photos.

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i’d upload some of them on the profile. "the clouds"… it’s so purely white and so vivid as if we could walk, jump or dance on them… a walk in the clouds.. hmm that would be nice dont u think so? *sigh*

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i also snapped loads of dead trees… here are some of them.. i find them hard to resist… was soo intrigue by the beauty of it.. i wish i’d learnt some sorta photography technique or own a great fancy camera to really really capture the splendor and the exquisiteness of the moment.  well, nvm…

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as i was on my way back home from my morning leisure stroll, it was almost 11a.m already and the sun has started to shine blaringly and the skies was so brilliant blue that it transformed the gloomy decay splendor of those dead trees into something else entirely.

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i have uploaded some of the photos in the photopages. but the said page is still in the dire need of tweaking  and fine-tuning as i dont really understand just yet how photopages work and how to be creative with it and what not… hehe

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                  Inaka no Seikatsu

              (Country Life by Spitz)

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nameraka ni sunda sawa no mizu wo

tamerau koto mo naku nagashikomi

natsukashiku kaoru gogo no kaze wo

nureta kubisuji ni ukete warau

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nousagi no hashirininukeru sama mo

sasa yuri hikaru hana no sugata mo

yozora ni matataku hoshi no gure mo

atarimae ni boku no me no naka ni

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kanarazu todoku to shinjiteita maboroshi

kotobani mamireta negano machiha tsuzuku

sayonara sayonara mado no soto no kimi ni

sayonara iwanakkya

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ichibandori no uta de mezamete

kanata no yama wo mite akubi shite

itadaki no shiro ni omoihaseru

suberiochiteiku kokoro no shizuku

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neyasai no doro wo arau kimi to

engawa ni asobu bokura no ko to

utsurautsura yawaraka na hizashi

owaru koto no nai rinne no ue

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anohino tawagoto ginno hakoni tsumete

sayonara(2) nega no machi ha tsuzuku

sayonara(2) itsu no hi ni ka kimi to

mata aetara ii na

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i think anybody who lives in a home with kids would have known "him and his sidekicks". i dunno why i suddenly thought of him… maybe it’s due to one of the Hallmark’s e-cards which keep on playing the birthday song with the "B.I.N.G.O-the-dog" tune… "click!!" the old record (which had been securedly stored in some secluded part of my brain) hits the ON button by itself and starts autoplaying the-song over and over again in my head…

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There was a farmer who had a dog

and BINGO was his name-O

B-I-N-G-O

B-I-N-G-O

B-I-N-G-O

and BINGO was his name-O

There was a farmer who had a dog

and BINGO was his name-O

(clap) -I-N-G-O

(clap) -I-N-G-O

(clap) -I-N-G-O

and BINGO was his name-O

There was a farmer who had a dog

and BINGO was his name-O

(clap) (clap) -N-G-O

(clap) (clap) -N-G-O

(clap) (clap) -N-G-O

and BINGO was his name-O

There was a farmer who had a dog

and BINGO was his name-O

(clap) (clap) (clap) -G-O

(clap) (clap) (clap) -G-O

(clap) (clap) (clap) -G-O

and BINGO was his name-O

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and so on… i’m sure you all know how the song goes on and on and on LOL.. really can’t stand the song nor the antics of that humongous-annoyingly overjoyed-purple-dino-named-Barney. i know i know.. it’s a kiddy programme and it’s suppose to be like that but hey.. enough with the jumping around and excessive happiness already..

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…flashback…

back then, my sis and her family reside together here in the family’s residence.. before moving out to their own home and at that time this lil nephew of mine has a stack of Barney’s VCD collections and on those days and nites he kept on insisting us to play the CD… and among all the CDs, there was one which was his most favourite and the first song feat on that one particular CD was B.I.N.G.O. 

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(hehe… now u know since when the song has been rooted in my brain…)

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"a comic strip taken from the net"

Sometimes.. i couldn’t help but wonder why do we human always don’t feel contented with what we have or with what we had been  blessed for… we whined when we don’t have enough time but we also grumbled when we have too much time… WHY?? Just like when we wish it was raining instead of the blazing sunny days or… wishing it was sunny on the blizzard stormy days… Hmmm it would be a total havoc if we, human is to be in charged of the weather, i must say [...talking about the weather, it's just nice out there, clear sunny day with fresh chilly breeze.]

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but then again… on a second thought.. if people always satisfied with what they already have at hand.. there wont be any progress in this world, would it..??  no development or advancement or whatsoever.. we could still be living in a cave hunting our food with blunt tools made out of stone.. for crying out loud.. hehe.. 

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anyway, i’m in such jolly mood these days… enjoying my "long vacation" with a smile plastered on my face..hehe.. i know there’s nothing to be happy about as there are a lot of uncertainties laid out for me along this path i took but i couldnt help being in high spirit as if there’s a gigantic intensed load has been lifted up from my shoulders.

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i’d just finished up "Honey and Clover" both season 1 and 2. i really love this story.. there are no mythical beings, death god, robotic figures, historical events, shogun samurai ninja or whatsoever… it’s a story of life as it is.. about friendships.. about figuring out what to do and what to be in life…

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it’s hillariously funny  and at the same time could be poignant and moving too… it varies between the two all throughout the show. somehow, almost everybody could really feel and relate the depiction of life in "honey and clover". .. :)

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have you ever have the thought of wanting to free urself away from the hustle and bustle of your routine life?.. i mean the life you’ve grown comfortable with for the past years… and when suddenly, out of the blue, you are no longer comfortable with what you’d thought u’re comfortable with…? the thought of living through it again and again…day by day…is no longer bearable..what’s more enjoyable…???

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i’m talking about the jiggle joggle of doubt in professional life… career-wisely speaking (erk!! do such words exist?) hehe… anyway, i’m sure these thoughts have had haunted many minds and still haunting many more and would haunt numerous others… it’s like a silent plague with indistinguishable fuzzily symptoms…

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what would u do if these thoughts haunt you one of these days? would u ignore it and pretend u didnt hear or thought anything? or would you really consider the thoughts and start re-evaluating stuff? or would you consider it but never do anything bout it and keep on wondering what would happen IF u do something bout it…

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these thoughts are common actually… it’s not an evil thought… it’s something that shows there’s a tint of dissatisfaction at the tiny dark corner of ur mind. or it could also exist due to the lack of motivator…the imbalances of self-value and sense of contribution (for example.. u know u could contribute more but u’re not given the chance or the opportunity to really show off the talent/u’re being deprieved of doing something that really matters…pssst this is just an example, got nothing to do with real person/life/event… any similarities are incidental) so u see, there’s some unfulfilling need involved and hence come the "the thought"…… remember Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs???

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would objective thinking helps in these matter? some ppl had enough thinking and rethinking and had gone through the evaluating process of pros and cons… of what should or what should not be done… of the Dos and the Don’ts… but in the end they still couldnt find the answer… and hehehe..dont ask me coz i dont have the answer(s) :)) .. but i do have a question..

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"there were 2 mice fell on a cream… one drown.. end of his story… and another one keep on paddling and pushing his feet and in the end the cream turn into butter and he safely climb his way up kicking alive"

so, which one of the 2 do u wanna be??

Bought another sets of anime yesterday. I’d been searching for a few title but it’s either they dont have it or it’s out of stock… what a pity…   anyway, i’ve been informed by one of the store assistants that they’ve re-open their other outlet @ level 3 snm…hehe.. gonna check that out on my next visit..

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anyway, one of the sets that i’d bought is Death Note… well there’re only 12 episodes available… maybe the rest are not yet released.  erm.. honestly said this series is a bit overated (well u know..with the huha huha on the media and all, subconciously make the expectation higher than the perception).. but it’s still ENTERTAINING nevertheless.

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it’s a bit different than those that i already have except for the concept of shinigami which has been first introduced to me through "Bleach… the same concept of Death God but entirely different interpretation i must say…

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This story is about a boy named Light who had found a note book called Death Note which originally belongs to a shinigami named Ryuk. there are instructions written in english on the inside cover page of the book (which i find a bit amusing..hehe). some of the things mentioned on the cover:- if u write a name of a person in that book… that person would instantly die within 40 seconds or so (but u should have a clear picture of the person’s face whose name u’re gonna write in the book so that the person with the same name would not be effected)… if no COD specified that person would simply die of heart attack… in a case of specified cause of death, the details of it need to be written in the book within 6 minutes and 40 secs… more or less something like that :))

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the rest of the story and the fact as to whether the incident of the book being found by a human being was intentional or not.. that one u would have to find it out urself  hehehe… i wont compare it with other animes.. simply coz  apples and oranges.. but if  u’re into anime, spent some of your time on this series and lemme know what u think.

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it was cloudy… "probably it’s gonna rain again" i thought to myself. i was home for Hari Raya AidilAdha celebration last 2 weeks. but since the day i arrived, the sky had never stop pouring out heavily. well, my hometown was one of the "kampung" which had been effected by the flood on the southern state recently and i was there at that time. and of course as everyone else, i found myself praying not to have to face it again (no matter how much i love rainy days.. hehe)

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withering trees are visible almost everywhere in most part of the "kampung"…especially the "durian tree"… leaves shrivelled, becoming red and yellow and slowly fading and passing away. Somehow, there are still beauty even in the bereavement aint it?

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i’m stump actually. i want to write but i dunno what’s there to write about..hehe… so in the end, i just sit in the dark, staring at the blank blaring screen and do nothing… with Shigeru Umebayashi’s Polonaise keep on playing and rewinding on the amp. psssstt..sounds like a creepy scene in a movie aint it.. hehe.. no matter how eccentric i am, it just dont feel rite being in one of the twillight zone’s scenes.. that’s why i start typing in my words. but alas, i only able to bable this far as the brain starts freezing again.

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i had wanted to talk about being nice and being nasty and how those two could affect our life. how do we differentiate between nice and lame…. or between nasty and firm. and how assertive plays a role in differentiating those words.  it’s quite simple actually but as the capacity of my brain to work rite now is almost zero so i have to adjourn this discussion on unannounced future date.